Its a bit long. please help me. Really need guidence. Realted to my BF :(?

Haven't you had enough of this abuse? You keep saying that you love him, but he has been horrible to you, more than he has been loving to you. You should be ready to move on after this. How can he want to come all the way to your country just to apologize, but then cuss you like you were some s trying to rob him on the street? This man only wants to control you, and it seems to me that that is what you are allowing him to do, and you have low self esteem because you are now out of a relationship that was abusive, yet you still want to be with this man.